Today in school I lost my wallet - apparently I dropped in when I was on my way out of Math class to go to ITGS. And I only realised it was missing when I was packing my bag from ITGS for lunch break... Hai - and that is why I DO NOT bring my wallet to school! Mr Bello returned it to me anyway when I made my way to check if it was in the Math Room! Thank you Mr. Bello!

(Anyway, this isn't why I'm really annoyed - as seem from above - something else is annoying me to bits!)

- I'm having a massive headache right now... Probably due to having to remember quite a lot of steps for the 18 Roses Dance...

- wearing a mestiza dress tomorrow :)

Signing off...

Today I have learnt something new...

I have learnt that I am a person who tends to keep their emotions to themselves and really only burst out when I'm alone. Today someone (who shall be left unnamed) 'tried' to play a practical joke on me about something that I consider to be a serious factor. Okay and so, he decides to tell me this thing about it and I actually believed him. But for some very strange reason, I managed to keep my cool and not burst out my emotions.

Maybe the reason for this is that I see no point in trying to blurt out my emotions in front of the person - or maybe the real reason behind it is because I DON'T want to show my emotions to them. I think I'll stick to the second interpretation because I think that's what's really going through my head when I am put into situations where I am bound to at least show some emotion. I mean, I can remember a situation where a 'friend' of mine left for New Zealand for good. I mean, he wasn't a very close friend of mine, but seriously, when I went to send him off at the airport I showed no emotion at all. But I remember coming home that night and actually cried when I realised that he had left...

Or take another situation where another group of friends tried to play another practical joke on me (also related to the serious factor mentioned in the first paragraph) - I kept cool after knowing what they had to say; but I guess I was just filled with too much anger that I blurted out a hint of anger when I spoke to them about it...

I know right - I think I'm starting to consider myself as a fake/plastic girl. I tell them that I'm alright, but actually, I'm a little scarred underneath...

Today during French, I came across a word that I didn't know shit how to pronounce...

Between Val and I - I can definitely say that it'll be a word that we will be repeating for a long time. Anyway, lately I've been pretty stressed. I've been counting down the days to My 18th not realising that just a day less, my Extended Essay will be due in. I got it back yesterday, and apparently, it's a load of crap. I have to work on changing my title again to suit what I've already written - at least this shows that I don't have much to edit in my body, except change a few things in my Abstract, Introduction and Conclusion. I so can't wait to hand it in and forget all about it! Then the next thing I would have to worry about is my TOK Presentations... Now I understand what the former IBers mean when this term is going to be a hectic one. Well, actually we have one less to worry about as last year, they had their English Oral commentaries this term, but apparently for us, ours will be next term right after MOCKS. But then the school decided to put Sports Day and Swimming Gala at the end of this term instead of the third term. This I don't mind though, because I love swimming (not the track and field events)...

After school was yet another Dance lesson for my Cotillion members - only 2 more practices left before the event!!! Should I be excited or nervous? Sister Jas says that I should be excited, and so does Nabilah Amdani :) - and she even called me a retard :P

At times I feel like it's going to be empty without... But at times I just feel like I'm glad it's all going to be over. All the headaches and sorrows I've been facing the past month. At times I feel I'm not going to enjoy the night at all. At times I just feel like quitting... It's getting too much to handle. But overall, I am REALLY REALLY excited/nervous :D

I feel that I have such a free weekend, but I'm in IB. This is HIGHLY impossible! Anyway, it has been quite a dreary week for me... I hope it'll all come to an end soon. But I seriously cannot face this person in the face right now. My patience level with this person is nearly all used up. But what to do... I just keep it all inside, and I think that's what's making me fill up with all this anger inside of me. And I feel like I'm taking it out on everyone else which is unfair. I should be taking it out on that specific person. But knowing that person... I don't think I can do it.

Anyway, seeing as I've been finding myself some free weekend time, I've used this opportunity to finalise my Debutante plans. I've already finalised the costings and hirings for my Videographers as well as waiting on for the designs to arrive for my banner... I've also finalised the menu and the centre piece decorations for the event. Right now, I'm putting together the music to be played at certain parts of the event as well as putting together songs for the open dance floor!

Too bad I wasn't in a jolly mood when I was doing all this. But anyhoo, back to work!

toodles♥

Ignoring the title for now... I'm damning that Calculus Test to hell! Hated it so much that I wished I could just rip it up into tiny little pieces. Anyway, results will be out either tomorrow or Monday depending on how quick of a marker Mr. Bello is. But I have a gut feeling we'll be getting it back tomorrow. Oh the horror!

Putting aside that horrible horrible test was another test that took place today - ITGS. Well, it wasn't too much of a horror like the Calculus Test, but let's just say I just couldn't be bothered? Well okay, I really just wanted to skip part a, b and c and just get on with the essay question worth 10 marks... I don't know when we'll get this test back - but I'm definitely sure not tomorrow...

Anyway, putting aside all the school stress comes another type of stress that I will not post on this post... Just so that the people I am actually going to talk about don't read it and well yeah, you get the drift. All I can say that as of this time, I am seriously, seriously annoyed. So annoyed with a capital 'A' that I can just scream. But no, I've been keeping the anger inside of me, only because I don't know who to scream at. Valerie - I think you'd know what I am talking about here. I kind of mentioned it to you in school...

Anyway, I'm so not in the mood to be writing a post now... So I shall head off...

toodles♥

Okay, you can't really see my blog titles, but this post is titled:

Seriously, I so cannot wait until IB is done and over with! I'm just really, really, really tired. Yet I cannot she the logic in how a person who is undergoing the cert programme can complain about too much work... Let me show you the difference:

1. Both parties go to the same school from 7:15am - 2:00pm (differs on different days) and have the same subject choices...

1. IB diploma students take 3 Higher Level subjects & 3 Standard Level subjects. Cert programme have the choice of taking 6 Standard Level subjects but can decide which from the 6 they want to drop, making them only have 5 Standard Level subjects in total.

2. IB diploma students HAVE to do a 4,000 word essay, also known as the excruciating EE, whilst Cert students DON'T have to do it.

3. IB diploma students HAVE to do a TOK Presentation and a 1,500 word TOK Essay. Cert students ONLY have to do a TOK Presentation.

4. Generally speaking, Cert Students have more free periods than IB diploma students. (Not to specifically name anyone - this Cert student can have only 1 subject a day while IB students would have at minimum 2-3 subjects a day)...

I can't pinpoint anymore differences, but as you can see... They have an easier life than we IB diploma students do, so don't go complaining about work!!!

toodles♥