Today I have learnt something new...

I have learnt that I am a person who tends to keep their emotions to themselves and really only burst out when I'm alone. Today someone (who shall be left unnamed) 'tried' to play a practical joke on me about something that I consider to be a serious factor. Okay and so, he decides to tell me this thing about it and I actually believed him. But for some very strange reason, I managed to keep my cool and not burst out my emotions.

Maybe the reason for this is that I see no point in trying to blurt out my emotions in front of the person - or maybe the real reason behind it is because I DON'T want to show my emotions to them. I think I'll stick to the second interpretation because I think that's what's really going through my head when I am put into situations where I am bound to at least show some emotion. I mean, I can remember a situation where a 'friend' of mine left for New Zealand for good. I mean, he wasn't a very close friend of mine, but seriously, when I went to send him off at the airport I showed no emotion at all. But I remember coming home that night and actually cried when I realised that he had left...

Or take another situation where another group of friends tried to play another practical joke on me (also related to the serious factor mentioned in the first paragraph) - I kept cool after knowing what they had to say; but I guess I was just filled with too much anger that I blurted out a hint of anger when I spoke to them about it...

I know right - I think I'm starting to consider myself as a fake/plastic girl. I tell them that I'm alright, but actually, I'm a little scarred underneath...